I have determined to be happy

I have determined to be happy
I have promised myself to be ok
I have deicded that whatever befallen me
Will be taken in a stride of maturity
And yet my heart betray
While this pain won't go away
It feels like I am walking in a maze
But the complexity never makes me feel amazed
I never want to go astray
But I fall into the jungle of confusion
A circle of dark sentiments
Of which I touch again and again
And I just let it be that way
While I hope and hope in despair
Kneeling to the Almighty
searching for His love to brighten my day
Waiting for my mind to restore the contentment
Because I have determined to be happy....

me, 5.40a.m