What I want

I dont even know how to start... when everything seems so wrong..
I hate the negative ambience, but somehow it is not within my power to decide the hue of atmosphere..
If there is 1 thing i really want right now, that is to leave everything behind and travel into a world of serenity.. I want to smell the sea, and listen to the waves..
I want to lie in bed all day long without being interrupted.
I want my day to stretch forever without me waiting hopelessly for the other half to come back.
I want to feel free, however 'free' is being defined..
I want my emotion to be blunt such that similar to a schizophrenic..
I just want a shoulder of a friend, for me to cry on..
And ears that can listen without being biased
A someone who can without effort, vibrate the frequency of sorrow, and eventually understand..
I need someone who can really understand..


Finally holiday!

Today is my first day of end posting holiday :)) As usual it starts with a routine--> spring cleaning! Oh i love that :p Bibik is away on holiday. I choose to stay with Ummi. I mopped the floor twice, I vacuumed the rooms twice, I washed all the curtains. arrange cupboards, put on new sheets and cook! I'm so tired yet it is so satisfying. I take care of faheem on my own, oh my i havent done that for quite long! And now I'm waiting for abang to come home. Abang has to travel a bit farther than usual to go to work, but i think he won't mind. He get home cooked food after all hehe.

After doing the spring cleaning, it would be a bit unusual wouldnt it if i dont end with a garage sale? so now i do have things to give for free, and some other for sale at a real cheap price. Faheem's old things :) some are brand new huu.

I guess i'll be frequenting cooking blog these few days :p


A fairy tale.. live happily ever after :D

Postcall for the umpteenth time in medical..

Sampai rumah je, faheem ajak g kedai sebab nak beli balloon. what?? adakah muka mommy macam org yg suka g kedai beli balloon??

Shopping guna kad abang. Lagi seronok :) faheem dapat ice-cream and Tejen (Vitagen) hehe. And of course a packet of balloons. Beli baju baru for myself, eh, for abang. utk abang pula? tentulah, because a wife dresses up for her husband ^_^ it's fair sebab i have just bought him 3 new shirts last week (walaupun guna duit abang jugak :p)

Ummi has just arrived from Korea last night.. and i was super excited to go back home. Lama tak lepak kat rumah Ummi (seminggu je pun hehe). Sampai je rumah ummi, i got a new handbag, a souvenir from Korea :D senyum sampai telinga. big, off-white, ummi abah definitely know my taste. faheem got 2 cute pajamas. thank you atuk. thank you nenek.

meghadap fb, such a rare ritual nowadays.. read all the status of new mommies. senyum sampai telinga lagi. somehow it tastes of life. Probably something that i have been missing all these while. babies. they are so cute, they remind me of my mummy-hood when faheem was a baby :))

Belek-belek gardening book. Hmm rasa macam nak pergi tanam pokok. Capai handphone, sms abang. Abang jom gardening!! I guess abang is so used to receiving weird sms during odd hours huu.

Oh was suddnely reminded, it's friday today. Al-Kahfi ye kawan2 :)

And tomorrow my fairy tale life vanishes into the hectic working life managing a 'cursed' male medical ward. Haihh. Counting the days to reach the finish line..

psst.. i called admin office this morning, requesting for Anest as my final posting.. may Allah ease..