start anew

I think I'll start writing actively again as I realize that is what is keeping me on track--> writing.. I am currently feeling so wrecked.  Wrecked. Wrecked. I need my personal motivator but I think he is in an even greater need of one.. I cant walk straight when my backbone is not there. I cant look healthy and flushed when my heart is not functioning. Abang. Oh how I miss him. He's tagging in our legendary orthopaedic department.  And he is as good as a walking zombie.

If only I can describe how our life is right now---> trust me,there is nothing right about it. No better than the titanic after being hit by the storm and rough sea. Its all haywire and topsy turvy. Every single thing seems so wrong.. and The most wrong of all the wrong is.. I feel so far from Him and I hate that feeling.. which I think is not just a feeling but the truth... o ALLAH please guide us, please.. please..

1st syawal

Today is 8th July 2013. And today is 1st syawal. Today i'm postcall. Today I just want to sleep T_T..
Not in the mood for raya. Probably because my recent Ramadhan was not that meaningful. Oh Allah how I cant wait to be done with this--> a topsy turvy life. Hopefully our next Ramadhan and Raya will be a better one... Ameen. Btw I'm doing medical, my 5th posting. If there is 1 thing I want to do right now, it is to cry.
Have a blessed Raya, people!