I'm irritable

Abang is now having his Internal Medicine exam. He was worried, so am I. I pray that Allah will give him the best insyaAllah :) I was unable to help him with his study, I slept early. In the middle of this hot summer, I again turn on the heater, I'm practically having a Raynaud syndrome huu with my extremely cold extremities. Abang study kat meja, aku meringkuk bawah meja (ada heater kat situ huu) This nausea is getting worse and it makes me anxious even more. I just can't wait to do the scan. GTD keeps playing in my mind, but I try to soothe my feeling by saying probably it's a twin pregnancy hehe. Abang was surprised and excited when I said that. Another thing is, I notice that I prefer to eat bread rather than rice. Rice turns on the nausea. Yesterday I prepared chicken soup, and I ate that with bread also, while abang had his usual rice meal. For breakfast, I'll have bread dipped in hot milo, and when I'm hungry, I'll munch on the bread as well huu. I can't be near abang as well (huu kesiannye abang) as again it nauseates me huu.

Abang knows that I peck his cheek while holding my breath!! Sadisnya hehe. Now I know why pregnant mommies have so much cravings! As for me, it's not really craving, but merely a way to find what suits my taste bud best. Yesterday when I was so sick with nausea, I asked abang to buy me a box of cocoa crunch and milk. But when the meal was right before my own nose, I felt like throwing out. Today I ask abang to buy maglubah with meat, as I thought that should be so appetizing, but I stopped eating very early because of the nausea. Banyaknya nasi terbuang lately, especially when abang also lost his appetite in the exam mode. It is worst during the night, forcing me to wake up very early and sit alone in the dark. I do feel tired and I become irritated easily. Alhamdulillah Abang keeps reminding me of the need to be patient in order for me to gain pahala. Getting pregnant is definitely not easy as earlier thought huu. Surprisingly I fall in love with the toilet! And I love to do the laundry. Perhaps in the toilet I feel free to throw out anytime, anywhere haha. And I love the smell of washing soap! It partially relieves the nausea.. And yet I'm still not convinced that I'm pregnant with a healthy baby until I can see the scan huuu. By the way, I'm entering the 6th week insyaAllah :)