cerita saya tentang breastfeeding

kita ni kalau nak apa2 mesti dengan ilmu. nak dunia dengan ilmu. nak akhirat pun dengan ilmu.

i gave birth approx 4 years ago. i was a student at that time. abangf was around alhamdulillah, jadi pom pom girl bersorak suruh push but he went back to jordan when faheem was 3  weeks old.

i was a medical student at that time, 4 months away from my professional exam; in which i would graduate if i pass. abang was in his 5th year and had another year to go before he can become a doctor. so i went back to kuantan with my mom. ummi took care of faheem when i attended lectures and clinical work in the hospital. i had 2 weeks of maternity leave and that was all. not more than that. berpantang tak uisah cerita, memang ke laut.

1 of the biggest challenge i faced at that time was breastfeeding. bila tinggalkan anak awal pagi, jumpa balik dah malam, in between i was busy and not able to pump out milk despite having a good breast pump, makan pun x menentu, kadang2 ada masa makan, tapi selalunya tak sempat. it didnt take long for milk production to stop. i took maxolone, domperidone, tell me i tried to keep the milk going. tapi bukan rezqi ameer faheem. ada orang kata kena minum air banyak, ada orang kata kena makan bubur kacang hijau, ada orang kata kena minum soya. macam2 lah petua. tapi kalau minum soya pun dlm kotak, bukan ada khasiat sangat, gula je lebih huu.

masa tu mana pernah dengar pasal produk shaklee tambah susu etc. i was naive. tp menyesal tu memang ada. cuna tanya inu2 yang tak banyak susu, tak dapat feed their baby, memang depress. menangis je memanjang. rasa macam a total failure at being a mother. from there i like to help mothers who really want to breastfeed their babies, because i understand what they are going through. bukan makan set banyak susu akan terus jadi supermom, banyak lagi ilmu lain kena tahu. cthnya milk supply and demand, complications that may arise etc.

when my lil sister gave birth to a handsome baby boy, i urged her to breastfeed. tapi dia kata takde susu. dahla housewife, memang rugi sangat2 kalau x exclusive breastfeed baby. awal2 memang takde susu, tapi kena hold on, relax and sabar, it will become better. so skrg dia mengandung the second one, mesti kena breastfeed! if only people know that no lab in the world can create
formula milk that is as superb as breastmilk, then they will do everything to ensure that their babies get only the best!

nothing comes easy in life, i always remember that. so is breastfeeding!
get help if u need one.

negativity

Alhamdulillah ive been with shaklee for the past 10days
and i learnt a lot during that time, ive started to get the hang of it.
Alhamdulillah that i was given a very caring upline who helped me a lot.

I really want to be serious in shaklee. Abang understands that, and he helps me in his own way. Now i dont have to urge him to take the vitamins, he eats them by himself hehe and prepare his own ESP.

Me? I am busy as always, juggling between work, locum and Shaklee. Ameer Faheem is now my new Murakkib haha, accompanying me to the shaklee HQ, COD shaklee products etc walaupun dia selalu tidur je dalam kereta.

Its true what most people say, we really have to get out of our cocoon, our comfort zone. Once i join shaklee, only i realize that i have to work hard to earn something, and doing business is not easy. Kadang2 rasa down bila sales x seberapa, tapi mujur ada kawan2 bagi semangat, ada senior yang sentiasa positive.  

abang and me, we dream of going back to kedah. alhamdulillah pembelian rumah dah selesai, yang tinggal adalah monthly loan payment yang bakal membuatkan kami miskin huhu. xpe rezqi Allah ada je sentiasa insyaAllah. aku dah berfikir2 nak renovate rumah serba sedikit, nak gunakan product shaklee for household cleaning  supaya rumah bersih and toxic free and safe for kids. you see i like shaklee products, then i sell and not the other way round. kalaupun xde org nak beli i will still buy them for my family, unless 1 day somebody can prove that is not safe for consumers. kalau ada rezqi nak plan of having another baby next year (as per abang request, not me huuu).

alih2 hari ni abang dapat surat penempatan- kelantan!!! adush kecewanya. kalau abang dpt kedah senang sket aku nak appeal g kedah, tp nmpknya makin sushlah urusan kami. tp xpe, aku ykn dgn kebolehan abg bab rayu merayu kat kkm ni hehe. tapi abang tanye pulak whether aku nk duk kelntan ke x sbb dia tringn nak buat neurosurg kat husm!! aaaaaaaa xnakkkkkk! 

haih hari ni emosi byk terganggu. lepastu abg oncall pulk... memang i am non productive again today.. suruh ameer faheem tdo n aku pun tdo jugk huhuu.

Tou have got to start somewhere

Pengalaman seminggu bersama shaklee

Saya pada asalnya tak pernah terfikir nak menjadi distributor shaklee. Nak guna untuk diri sendiri sahaja. Tapi ramai menasihatkan saya jadi ahli supaya boleh beli dengan harga murah- harga ahli. Memang berbaloi jadi ahli. Sebenarnya bayaran RM 65 je untuk seumur hidup. Syaratnya mestilah beli sekurang2nya setahun sekali. tak perlu cari ahli baru, tak perlu beli setiap bulan. xde yang stress2. So saya setuju.

Rupa2nya ada offer lagi best. Kalau beli sampai rm650, boleh dapat free membership! Memang dengar macam mahalnya! Cubalah cari kawan2 yang nak beli produk shaklee, boleh order skali. Atau cuba rancang kewangan anda supaya anda beli brg2 yg perlu cthnya kalau memang anda makan esp, beli 2-3 botol terus utk stok bulan depan. Atau cuba sedikit2 tukar barang rumah anda seperti instead of beli pencuci lantai di supermarket, belilah pencuci lantai shaklee. Atau kalau anda ingin mencuba nasib dalam bidang perniagaan, beli stok yang selalu laku seperti vit C, anda boleh jual kemudian! Dah dpt free membership and dapat beli dengan harga ahli terus!  Kan untung.

Kalau anda memang minay berniaga, bagi saya yang penting adalah support system. Penting anda mencari up line yang boleh membantu and strong shaklee family. Alhamdulillah saya direzqikan join shaklee dengan family yang sangat mantap and membantu kita untuk bermula. Saya memamg tak pernah mendalami ilmu berniaga, cuma harapkan bantuan family shaklee, harapkan sokongan suami Dan bismillah, saya bertawakkal kepada Allah!

Saya masih terlalu baru dalam shaklee tapi x pernah rasa alone. Banyak inisiatif up line kita buat coaching and training programme. InsyaAllah saya akan join 1st program dalam bulan 6 ini. Up line saya siap tolong utk cater customer saya SBB kdg saya pun terkial2 lagi dgn selok belok shaklee.

Lagi best, bukan ilmu perniagaan je yg anda dpt, tapi juga ilmu kesihatan. Kalau nak jual supplemen, tak ke anda perlu belajar dulu sebelum berkongsi dengan orang Lain? Dan ilmu kesihatan akan selalu berguna untuk diri anda dan keluarga. Sebab tu ramai orang suruh anak jadi doktor supaya boleh tolong family bila perlu hehe (walaupun sbnrnya doktor kdg terlalu busy sampai family sendiri pun terabai huhu)

Yang terakhir, kalau kita dah lihat ramai orang berjaya dalam dunia perniagaan, takkan kita nak berdiam diri and lihat je kan? Awal2 dulu, saya selalu cakap dgn abang, "si A ni dpt bonus 4 angka, si B dpt 5 angka, si C dpt 6 angka". Abang kata, " pemilik shaklee lagi entah berapa angka tak terkira, Ayang". Saya balas, " memanglah, tapi kalau kita tak Bermula sekarang, satu angka pun kita x dpt!". Kesimpulannya you have got to start somewhere! Kalau tak, orang Lain dah lama berlari, kita tersipu Putih mata kan? :)

Kalau Berminat nak join family shaklee saya yang super best, pm me now! Pm laju2 supaya anda tak terlepas kapal yang dah nak berlayar! And kita sama-sama majukan ekonomi!

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0139144638

IBU shaklee saya kata jangan main terjah je terus niaga, kna buat introduction statement and declaration dulu

So kat sini saya introduce

assalamualaikum..
sy merupakan pengedar shaklee anda bg kawasan SG buloh, shah alam dan juga pengedar seluruh malaysia melalui pos. antara set yg sy tawarkan adlh :

Set kehamilan
set menyusu
set berpantang
set kurus
Set tambah berat badan
set kulit cantik
set warga emas
set nutrisi kanak2
set berpuasa
skincare set
set rambut sihat

Saya seorang doktor jadi pendekatan saya pada supplement mungkin agak berbeza dengan ramai orang dan saya tidak dapat memberi jaminan bahawa barangan shaklee dapat menyembuhkan penyakit. Saya suka untuk berkongsi secebis pengetahuan tentang kesihatan dengan anda dan membantu berkaitan masalah kesihatan.

jd buat sesiapa yg tinggal berdekatan blh la hubungi saya utk mendapatkn sebarang produk shaklee. insyaAllah semoga kita semua sihat dan kekal
cantik dengan shaklee.

Maryam al batul azizuddin
0139144638
Shaklee independent distributor 1146319

**why I choose shaklee? Because it works!**

Mesti syumul!

Syumul is a word best used to describe Islam. It means as a whole. It is just the right thing to do once you consider yourself a muslim, you have to be Muslim in every aspect of life. You dress properly, u talk nicely, u purify or heart, u have a good connection with Allah and others. A perfect aqidah leads to a sweet akhlaq and perfection in Ibadah. Though it is never easy to be a perfect Muslim inside out, one can never use that as an excuse not to try at all.

My housemanship training for the past 2 years has been a good one, medically speaking. But it has also changed me into someone I don't like and gave me a life that I despise.

So yes I have been telling myself since forever that I want to change. I want to change in a 'syumul' manner. I'm starting slow but I do hope I will continue to progress.

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim, here goes...!

New thing

Today I mark another new thing in my life. I join shaklee. So yes I'm a shaklee distributor. So this will be my 'entertainment' for the time being. I have always wanted to start my own business, be it a bakery, boutique, clinic or whatever but Im yet to achieve that. so I guess there's nothing wrong in starting small and safe. I've been using shaklee product for quite a while, I started with esp when I first started housemanship. It was such a wonder, then I introduced abang to it. Abang liked esp also because it gave us the energy we needed to continue working but of course sometimes I was not that rajin to prepare him the drink each morning huu. Then I bought meal shake for ameer faheem. He loved it also, but then he loves almost anything.

Now that ive finished my housemanship, I am more serious into health and beauty stuff. Who doesn't want to be beautiful with flawless skin? And who doesn't want to be complimented on their youthful look right? Truth is I always enjoy it when everyday patient asked me again and again what is my age, or whether I'm a true doctor or just a student, or that I'm lying to the bone when I say i have a 3y/o kid hahaha. Semua perempuan pun cmtulah suka kna puji :p

Starting from there I seriously made my own research on how to look young always. I mean what are the food that I have to take, the supplements that I need etc. I was somehow attracted to shaklee mostly because of the price; it is quite cheap compared to stuff in pharmacies, and of course they have great testimonies which women always want to believe haha. Abang is a bit skeptical though. I'm telling you I had a hard time asking permission from him, and when he finally says "yes" I don't want to ask much. Abang beat muka seposen jugak bila wife dia suka suruh makan vit shaklee haha

To be continued...

Ujian

Saya ni sejak dari zaman muda bukannya jenis pandai melayan budak2, sampai dah ada anak sendiri pun masih xberapa pandai. Jadi bila ada ameer faheem, memang ini satu anugerah juga dugaan besar yang Allah berikan. Allah nak uji kesabaran, juga nak didik supaya jadi seorang yang penyabar. Most of the time, bila fikirkan tentang anak, my main reason not to have anymore kid is because taknak berebut kasih sayang abang dengan anak2. Orang dengar reason tu macam silly but it is true no matter how silly it sounds..

Abang memang berbeza. Abang kata abang suka anak ramai, macam abah (my father in law). I asked "knapa abang marah faheem kalau abang suka anak ramai?" Abang kata, marah bukan indikator sayang atau tidak. Marah untuk membetulkan. Abah pun marah abang and his siblings during their growing up years.. I just nodded.

Saya bukan jenis orang yang suka marah2 tapi orang yang suka merajuk. Kalau tak tahan dengan perangai faheem, ill lock myself in my bedroom and weep.. And sms/ call abang. Sometimes i talk to ummi or my sisters. I think sometimes i am being too ambitious such that i forget to touch reality. Anak itu untuk dididik bukan lahir2 dah serba cerdik. Yes i always forget that...

Harini Allah menguji lagi. Bukan benda besar pun tapi benda remeh temeh that i accidentally exaggerate :( and i end up feeling so down and hopeless.. astaghfirullah...

A different world totally

Sometimes when i talk to my colleagues, i feel like im an alien coming from a totally different planet huu. Probably because they talk about movies and outing and travelling when i am more interested in discussing about pinggan mangkuk and comforter and house appliances and recipes and kids! Oh my i really think i have entered the world of makcik2 T_T.

Today i finish my time to think on how can i keep our house spick and span. Probably i have just accepted the reality that now we dont have a maid anymore T_T... Abang and me; we are both a bit OCD in housekeeping. But truth is im tired of having to vacuum the floor every single day, spring cleaning the kitchen every single day, plus thousand other things including doing the laundry, cooking and taking care of ameer faheem. On top of that i have to look good for my husband and smell nice as if im a celebrity doing nothing other than sitting at the dressing table testing which perfume smells the best and which hairdo makes me look cute and adorable haha.

Having an active 3 years old boy is another thing. I tried my best to keep his room clean but he is capable of making his room look like a tornado-hit area, without even trying! Oh man we are not yet talking about a boy who comes home sweaty and smelly and dirty after a football game. Im telling you im anticipating that!  ~sigh~

We manage to exclude his bedroom from our territory. At times i dont even bother to clean his room haih. There was 1 time he ate oat bar on his bed and the next morning i found out that the crumbs fully covered his bed. + ants of course huu. There was another time he ate chocolate cake (im telling u he is a cake lover), and smeared my white cushion. Or wipe his dirty hand on my white curtains! Just how can anybody explain the frustration im facing??

Oh ameer faheem...
I dont want to become a monster jst because of that reason. At the same time i dont want that to be the reason for leaving my house in such a mess. So i have to find a strategy on how to work out things.

Ill update later when i find one…

Gambar bilik dengan kekotoran level 1 (mild)
Wait till i post the pic of a level 5 mess!!

Ramadhan approaching

Today i feel different, because today i'm fasting. I havent fasted for quite a long time, with the busy schedule most of the time i dont plan. I always miss sahur, but when i go to work most of the time we dont manage to eat anything also. Patutnya berniat puasa je terus.

Now that ramadhan is approaching i am actually doing a marathon for puasa ganti huhu. Damn last minute. Our ramadhan for the past 2-3 years, i can say... Meaningless :( we work like mad. We dont wake up for sahur, we dont have proper iftar. Sometimes i just drink a glass of plain water at 9pm to break my fast, or grab a date. We dont go for congregational tarawih, and that was such a loss. Occ we get to go to bazaar ramadhan, of course in a hurry because work finished late and magurib was approaching or we were in uurry to start pm shift. Eidulfitr was the same. I was postcall on the first day of raya. I remember abang urging me to come back at 7am so that he can join the eidulfitr prayer while my MO refused to let me go till 8am. I cried the night i did oncall because it was very melancholic to listen to raya song while i had to work attending a ward full of foreigners. Luckily abang came to accompany his weeping wife haha. I then slept till noon. We didnt shop for baju raya, no raya food, so went back to my parents house where we continued to sleep and faheem could play with his relatives. Sedih tgk budk lain ada baju cantik, while our faheem wore an undersized jubah from years back, so no raya photos also huhu.

Sekarang dah berkira2, nak plan for ramadhan. Nak ambil sunnah sahur daily and iftar early. Nak stock up the fridge with anything necessary. Nak bawa faheem pergi tarawih. Nak khatam alquran dlm ramadhan. And nak baju raya! Nak hias rumah juga utk raya haha besarnya cita2. We are human. If ever we fly to the moon, im sure we always want to come back and smell the earth and grass. That is fitrah.. :)

Macam nilah..

Macam ni lah kalau ada anak.... Kena banyak bersabar.. Kdg2 melayang jugk kesabaran tu huuu. Pagi2 menangis2 nak cake, which i baked for abang's birthday.. In 2 days time... Tak sempat nak hias pun. Tak sampai hati, mummy bagi jugaklah.. Tp hati sedih tak terkatalah. Sempat jugk abang pesan suruh snap gambar despite 1 slice has gone missing huu.

Having a child really changes one's life. Ive gone through that and im not ready to go through it again. Baru kemas rumah, kejap je dah bersepah2. Baru pakai baju lawa2, anak berak kna g basuh. Baru kemas katil anak lompat2. Baru plan to have a quiet time, anak dtg tanya sejuta soalan nonsense secara non stop. Besar kan jasa ibu? Berkorban diri utk org lain.. And for that i would like to say thank you to ummi who managed to take care of us without any help! Me? Baru je bibik berhenti kerja dah menangis hari2 x larat nak urus everything.. Sbb tu i dont deserve to be celebrated on mothers day :(

Pondering..

Lately i have been thinking, what do i really want in life? What can really make me feel happy and satisfied? Probably because i have finished my housemanship makes me think that i have more options to choose from although i still have 2 more years to go for my compulsory service and 8 more years to complete my jpa bond huu.  It seems being a doctor is not that enjoying anymore.. Or being a gov doctor is not that enjoying. Or im just sitting in a wrong place. Workload is not the issue because obviously workload currently is not overwhelming at all. Im tired of doing the same plain thing everyday. And i want freedom of time. I want to plan my own schedule and be good at it.

Ive been doing locum work quite a lot and that is quite satisfying.. Because patient say thank you and come back to you just to tell u they are better and to appreciate whatever that you have done for them. They smile. U feel that u really want to help.

Whereas working in the hosp, i dont know a big number of my patients (mostly because im working in a male dengue ward and most of them are foreigners- bangladeshi, nepalese, vietnamese and what not; whom im not even interested in communicating due to langguage barrier and other personal reasons), they are not appreciative, they are misusing gov facilities and they expect to get 5 star treatment when the number of patients are like infinity. They come, we treat and they go back well. As lame as that :( Doctors are human too..

Most of the time you r expected to become superwoman who are available anytime to report duty. I am rebellious. I have a kid and i have a husband.  Sometimes i just bring my kid to work and during oncall. I ask abang to stay with me in the ward whenever im oncall. People talk behind my back but who cares huu. Specialist sometimes gave their sharp words, hut i turn 2 deaf ears.. Sometimes i get colleagues who like to nag, who cares either huhu

I think what i get during my working years are.. I develop into someone inhumane and mean and selfish... and i damn hate that...

Working on sunday!

Badmood. 1st it is a sunday and i'm working. 2nd today is mother's day. 3rd i really dont like some people's patient management. 4th maybe im just being rebellious. 5th i think i just hate working huuu...... Glad that i have a good partner to work with today!

Brooding

I hate oncalls! And i hate abang's oncalls :((( abang is working night again and again the house becomes unbearable.. Abang must b doing some magic such that i cant live far from him, not even for a second. Mcm kena minyak dagu pun ada huhu.

Harap2 abg masuk admin lepas ni, blh kerja office hour je. Xpun g klinik kesihatan.

Today i bake a cake. Tp jenuh larang faheem usik. He has been opening the fridge all day long and dug his little fingers into my cake each time haihhh. I hope i wont get nightmare when i open the fridge and find out a big chunk of cake is missing huuu... Make me feel like i desperately need a big fridge.. The 2 sided one with multiple doors so that he cant open the top door. I have to rearrange the shelves and other foods each time i want to stuff the cake in :((
Abang kata sabar dulu, tunggu pindah kedah baru beli so that we dont get the trouble transporting a fridge to kedah. Aaaa lambatnye lagi huu....

Unbearable

I am supposed to be working right now, but i'm blogging because i am jobless and i miss abang so much and the hours are just unbearable... Missing my warm home and warm bed and warm husband hehe :p

Taking 1 small step..

Today i work night shift while abang work day shift. I always hate that. I hate waving him goodbye, i hate staying alone at home without him.. I send ameer faheem to his nursery, as usual. I always do that. I send him to the nursery despite me not working during the day.. Because i find it very hard to take care of him alone when abang is not around.. And i dont want to become a monster mommy. So today i spend my time in a bakery shop- selling bakery stuff, and i clean my cupboard. Guess what? All my baking ingredients have expired!! Of course. Reading the labels and brands left me melancholic. Those are the ingredients which i bought in jordan.. 2-3 years back. That is how long i've stopped baking! I plan to start baking again..

And my childhood dream to open a bakery.. Probably now is the best time to do it. So ibought few baking gadgets but being stringynon that.. Thats the different between men and women.. Woman play it safe.. Eventhough while planning to start a business haha. Goodbye books and all the guilt that come from not reading them.. I do want different things in life..

When 2 roads diverge

Into MOship for more than a month.. I just cant decide what i want to do after this.. A part of me want to further my study and become a specialist.. That is what ive been wanting all these while.. But a part of me vote for an easier life; starting my own GP or perhaps open my own bakery, have ample time to spend with my Ameer Faheem, travelling, reading, gardening, baking..

Gosh i just cant decide!!!!

Life is treating me well Alhamdulillah. I work 4-5 days a week, i dont work long hours and i get to go home during working hours (after ive finished rounds), to cook, water my plants, do laundry, or even do grocery shopping! The only downside of it is abang is always away at work haihh. He's a paeds houseman but i think paeds posting is not that bad now. They do get 2 days off in a week.

I can even teach ameer faheem to read! Suprisingly he can sit down and read! He can read alif ba ta till kho now. Abc..not yet. He can count till 10. Probably not as advance as other kids but that is really an achievement for me and him :) alhamdulillah. He likes to speak english though sometimes i cant understand anything hahaha i think because he watches english cartoon. He can read doa makan in full, he is very cunning, sometimes asking for things in a cute way such as, "mommy, faheem nak milo boleh x? Boleh x mommy?"

If there is 1 thing i cant wait right now.. It is to settle done..but of coursr many things have to b done before that can happen.. :) may Allah ease