Tahniah to those new wed couples!! :D

Lately ramainya sahabat2 yang kahwin (Jun 2010), kad jemputan either e-card or hardcopy banyak sgt diterima, tp semuanya tak tertunai.. maaf sahabat2..

Seronok melihat mereka bahagia..especially those in my MBBS batch:

Nizam dan Ezzu

Kak Timah and Hafizi

Aizat & Syahriani

dan ramai lagi...

Bila tengok ramai yang kahwin, rasa teringin nak kahwin for the second time but with the same person hehe. I always say this to abang, "Abang, jom kita kawen!!", abang pun layan je la cakap, "Jom!!" in a very excited manner haha

Perkahwinan itu indah, walau adakalanya musim duka menerjah. Perkahwinan itu satu perjalanan, yang tidak semestinya tidak dibantuti halangan. Perkahwinan itu mendidik, meski aku terkadang lelah dengan didikan.

Perkahwinan kami bukan tidak dihiasi masalah, bukan tidak diserikan dengan pergaduhan, but at the end of each day, I close my eyes knowing that I still have him to walk with me, I feel contented.. and that is more than enough for me alhamdulillah :)

Teringat pada sajak yang sengaja aku pilih untuk diabadikan atas kad jemputan perkahwinan kami...

I cannot promise you a life of sunshine

I cannot promise riches, wealth or gold

I cannot promise you an easy pathway

That leads away from change or growing old

But I can promise you all my heart's devotion

A smile to chase away your tears of sorrow

A love that's ever true and ever growing

A hand to hold in yours through each tomorrow

Yes, I'll marry you..

Kadangkala aku pandang wajah abang penuh cinta, abang akan bertanya, "Pandang apa?"

Aku hanya tersenyum2 malu sendiri

Kadangkala aku lontarkan pandangan penuh amarah pada abang, abang lebih suka mendiamkan diri dan memandang ke tempat lain

Kadangkala aku enggan tatap wajah abang bila bermuram durja, abang akan paksa, "Pandang abang sekarang!"

Kadangkala aku lepaskan keluhan seni, abang tetap juga terperasan, "Kenapa mengeluh?"

Kadangkala aku menangis sendiri, rindu pada keluarga, rindu untuk pulang ke Malaysia, abang akan mendakapku sambil berbisu..

Perkahwinan itu sentiasa membutuhkan kesabaran dan kefahaman, perkahwinan itu bukan sekadar satu perjudian, tapi perkahwinan memerlukan kepada usaha untuk berjaya! Moga semua pasangan berkahwin melayari rumah tangga dalam redha Allah! Tahniah dan tahniah :)

LOVELIEST COUPLE EVER!!!!

Currently enjoying few minutes being single after almost a week of feeling intoxicated by my significant other (as if I don't have any hope of being single after a'thiq's departure to jordan in few weeks time huhu p/s maybe i can still flirt after this wink wink :p), updating this blog while A'thiq performs his Jumaat prayer, is undoubtedly my priority hehe. I'm now enjoying Kedah, while reminiscing the majestic day of our humble wedding reception and of course enjoying the photos as well as the nice statements from family and friends that sound something like "Amboi comelnya, pandai hang pilih ye Athiq" or "Lawalah bini ampa ni noo" hahaha though I know for sure that A'thiq is feeling extremely jealous of me and trying hard to make me believe that we look alike which signifies that whenever anybody mention my kecomelan, it implies to his 'good look' also ehem ehemmmm (hahahaha again and again. kidding :p)

I couldn't find the most precise word to picture my euphoria (i could even cry!!) when I saw our friends' faces at the reception especially my MBBS 0611, akhawat from SRIH!!, SMKS, and of course my ABs!! Thank you from the deepest bed of my heart, for making our wedding reception such a memorable one!!!! (obviously anybody can detecy that I'm typing this in such a euphoric state haha)

Because I know soo many people are dying to lay their eyes on the picture of the loveliest couple ever, I very happily upload this pic hehe. Enjoy it :D

The loveliest and greatest couple ever!!

To Ummi and Abah, I love both of you extremely. You have done so much for me. I'm now a wife to an honourable man, but I am still the loving daughter to the greatest and loveliest couple ever!!!

Two mums yang sangat aku cintai!! Pray that I can be as great as them :)

This is my new dad :)

Two men that I love most! + abah kedah + umar + yasir :p

Asma kakak & yasir. though i'm feeling a lil sad that umar wasn't around...

Thank you to my great mak andam- Asma' hehe and my pengapit- Faraa. Really thank you! Thanks to my relatives who have helped in making the reception a smooth one, to Mimi, Faraa and Hana who have camped in my house since the night before the wedding to put on Henna on my fingers etc.. :) Abg Apidzs the great wedding photographer :p And especially to those who gave us presents especially those who gave me things which really suits my taste, and for ME ALONE (e.g ade org bg minyak wangi perempuan tp tak bg minyak wangi lelaki, ada org bagi baju perempuan je and tak bagi baju lelaki hehe) while abandoning A'thiq and managed to make him feel extremely jealous of me for having such sporting buddies ngeh3x

I'm also feeling extremely excited after a wonderful discovery that in 4th year, I'll be in the same group with Ah-long dude!! Ah-long dude, for sure your prayer has been granted!! (mine as well hehe)

I think that's all for now. Will surely update later!

Wedding miscellaneous

It feels nice (extremely actually) to enjoy post-exam quiet days in the serene ambience of our home. I'm trying to pretend that nothing big is going on (since I am not into socializing and partying that much though if the tok kadi asks me whether I would like to bring forward my akad nikah, i won't hesitate an inch to answer a definite Yes haha). My aunt has arrived from Sarawak yesterday, and here I am, blogging. 

For my short case i got a case of breech with Dr Roszaman. Hmm nothing much, and the discussion was around external cephalic version. Dr Dalia (the new lecturer) accompanied him, she was actually trying to familiarize herself with the examination system. Anyway, it was very short (as the name implies of course), I hope it was ok, enough to cover my lumpy long case. Enough of the examination dose. 

Truthfully our house is as quiet as a grave (i am obviously lying because i can hear the sound from the switched on fan). But we are expecting the arrival of relatives tomorrow. There are things which don't happen as planned earlier. Upset? A bit. But never mind, Allah is the best planner :)

I think I've passed the hectic part for the wedding (though I think the next hectic episode starts tomorrow whooa this is so nightmarish), and as for now the only thing I'd love to do is enjoying this end of year 3 holiday to the fullest!

Come to think about it, I have finished my Year 3 MBBS which means I am now a Year 4 student. Is that important? Because I don't feel the slightest 'brainier than a week ago' when I was in Year 3 hmmm. However Year 4 promises a brighter med student life for me. I really can't wait for Year 4 to start! Ah-long dude adekah kita akan sama posting?? Really hoping for it...

There's NO MORE secret about it huh? huuu

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For larger view of the cards below, do not hesitate to click on the pictures k :)

Kenapa banyak sgt kad ni? Because A'thiq suka kad warna hitam tu, my family loves the pink malay one, and of course I love the simple english version (simply because of the rose! hehe)

A new disease

"Awak, nanti kalau awak dah kawen mesti dah takde masa untuk kita. Mesti awak dah tak rapat dengan kita lagi..Nanti awak dah taknak kawan dengan kita sebab selalu sibuk dengan husband je" I am reminded of this usually-true statement from a very very very dear friend, which made me feel sad when she said it...

Is it true? I used to think it's true, and I still think it is true.. based on my experience with married friends.. I don't think they intentionally do that, it's just that to be a wife means to embark on a commitment-loaded journey... and require schedule adjustment according to priority.. perhaps

But I am so determined to change that (of course when I be someone's wife, 1 day insyaAllah....), although I don't (yet) have the slightest confident I am capable of doing it.. 

Because I am afraid I am showing the first vague symptom- blog-update lag huu. I don't write as much as before. But personally I like to read my buddies' blogs on their life experiences, significant achievements, personal perceptions and how they cope being a 'human' and such. truthfully I don't really read blogs containing heavy stuff. Because whenever I want to read on ilmiah stuff, i prefer to read books which explain everything in detail. Oh btw, I despise magazine as well huu.

I learn a lot from others' experiences about 'life' and i try to share my own experience no matter how insignificant it may be, hoping it would be useful though in the least helpful manner. Well you know (this is strictly not for Martians, it's for the Venusians ONLY!!) it is the "I feel sad and when I know you feel sad as well, it makes me feel relieve because i know i'm not alone" thingies hehe.

So back to 'emotional' and 'novel' blogs, through my blog, I find a channel to reach out and connect (to Venusians of course) And when I don't update this, it feels like I am kind of abandoning those who always listen, and always appreciate, always read, always acknowledge my  insignificant existence in this temporary world.

So back to the blog-update lag.. I kinda.... feel guilty because I think I am succumbing to the "Once you get married you are not my friend anymore" disease.. Astaghfirullah, I have promised myself that I will try my best to inject myself with the best vaccine so that I won't get that disease!! 

I think I am not going to update on the Indonesia trips (hopefully the many pictures would make myself remember the nice trip forever :D ) 

Whatever it is, remind me to be perfectly normal whatever happens after this. I think I am straying again.. hmmm..................................

i copied & pasted this hehe

Mama dan Papa sedang menonton TV, seraya mama berkata. “..i letih
la..dah lewat ni, i nak tido lah….”
Mama pun pegi dapur nak tutup tingkap dapur, nanti masuk pulak
lipas…leceh pulak nanti..dah tu, ade pulak rice cooker dalam
sink..rendam lepas makan tadi..basuh jap…
susun pinggan kat rak, lap dapur..terpercik kena sambal masa masak
tadi…check air panas dalam flusk..takut habis pulak nanti malam
anak
nak susu…memang dah kering pun flusk ni, jerang la air…sementara
tunggu air masak, nampak pulak bekas gula dah kosong….salin la
gula…check bubur untuk anak nak hantar ke taska esok..nasib baik ade
lagi…ishh…ni lauk bila ni, semalam…dah beku dah…basuh la
kejap….pegi yard, masukkan baju kotor dalam mesin basuh…penat dah
ni, besok je la basuh…sidai kaian lap je lah…
tik…bunyi air dah masak…salin air dalam flusk…ok settle…


baru teringat tak semayang lagi…on da way nak g bilik, papa tgk tv
lagi…nampak pulak beg anak untuk hantar ke taska…check…baju 2
pasang, towel…towel kecik utk selsama…calamine lotion untuk sapu
ruam…pampers
4 keping….alamak..telupa pulak masukkan botol…basuh botol jap…ok
settle…

ternampak pulak beg g keje…emm..besok nak pakai beg polo coklat lah,
asik2 pakai beg hitam ni je…salin jap barang2 g beg coklat…cek sume
6
poket beg, takut la tetinggal apa2..leceh pulak..selalunya barang yang
tertinggal tu la yang nak pakai nanti…hishhh sempit la beg ni…hangin
je…nak kena beli ni beg baru…rasenya 25 hb ni Sogo sale nih…mana
flyers tadi ek…ha ni die..ok, catit jap kat yellow sticker, nanti
lupa..ok settle…

Tetiba dengar suara papa…”..u buat apa lagi tu..tadi kata nak
tido..”….”..yelah nak tido la ni..nak smayang jap…”

masuk toilet..buat apa2 yang patut…cuci muka dulu..2 jenis lak
tu…adoi..gosok gigi…smayang…pakai toner…pakai treatment
cream…nak lawa and maintain punya pasal lah ni…
nanti orang kata baru anak satu dah macam anak 4 pulak…huhuhuhu…

bukak almari…emmm…pakai baju hijau ni lah besok…gosok kejap..check
baju papa, baju papa pun kena gosok jugak ni…kat bilik belakang…
la, napa komputer ni tak tutup ni..gelas kopi pun ade lagi, dah bersemut
dah..ishhh …g dapur,
basuh, sambung gosok baju…gantung
elok2…kemaskan baju gantung2…masukkan seluar papa yang dah kotor
dalam tempat kotor…ok settle..

dgr suara papa lagi…”..i dah ngantuk ni..”..dalam pada nak masuk ke
bilik…owh…pokok aku dah nak mati ni ha..lupa dah 3 hari tak
siram…ok, siram jap…check jap pintu ni…sah tak kunci lagi…grill
pun tak tutup..ni kalau tak check ni, senang2 je mat indon masuk rompak
umah aku…bukak lampu luar..

ni mainan ni sepah2…masukkan la dalam bakul mainan budak ni…banyak
nya…sampai bawah meja makan pun ade…adoi….ok dah …

ok dah boleh baring…adoi sakitnya pinggang…cium si comel ni
kejap…selimutkan die…la..napa basah ni…emm, tukar la pempers
ni…tak bagus la brand ni, nanti nak tukar lain la…nanti g Sogo 25 hb
ni beli la skali…ok sayang tido k…kalau boleh jangan la bangun tgh
malam ni eh..tido sampai pagi k…gud nite..sweet
dreams…

aaahh…sedapnya dapat baring…mana pulak lotion sapu kurus aku
nih…ha, ni dia…sambil sapu lotion kurus,,,setkan alarm…setkan
program kerja besok…pg kul 9.30 ade meeting..
ahh…boring…panas pulak lotion nih..dah la…emm..sedapnya lelapkan
mata…Ya Allah…terima kasih untuk rezekiMU hari ini,…mohon
keberkatan dari mu tuhan…papa pun bangun tutup tv…”…i dah ngantuk
sangat ni…nak tido lah…citer pun tak best malam ni, bola pun
takde…”…selang seminit …dengar suara papa berkeruh…dah agak
dah….

So?….apa yang peliknya..??

Anda tahu kenapa wanita hidup lebih lama?…SEBAB ADE BANYAK KERJA NAK
KENA BUAT….tu yang tak boleh nak mati cepat tu…

Hantarkan ke 5 WANITA yang anda rasa hebat…pasti anda disayangi kerana
memahami mereka…well, women understand women better…
foward jugak kat lelaki-lelaki so mereka akan hargai emak, isteri, dan
kawan
2
dengan lebih baik lagi…

Tak kira la wanita berkerjaya atau surirumah…setiap wanita adalah
istemewa dengan cara mereka sendiri…

Kalau lelaki mengakui kebenaran ini….hormat dah hargailah
mereka…untuk keperibadian dan kebolehan mereka untuk berdikari…

apa pendapat anda?

Aku yang suka merapu

Sebelum aku meneruskan dengan celoteh kali ni, i would like to apologize to anybody yang ceritanya termasuk dalam artikel kali ni..

Once I had a very close friend.. sama-sama di matrik UIA dulu.. dulu she read biological science. i read medicine. she got married as soon as she graduated from matric. so she went to UIA gombak. her husband was doing (and is currently) Economics.

So at one time, there was a major shift in UIA. Those who are doing biological sciences, mathematics, biomedics etc had to transfer to Kuantan, from Gombak. This friend, she changed her course from biological science to Engineering for the sole purpose- she wanted to stay in Gombak with her husband! At that time, i thought her decision was kind of weird. Gombak and Kuantan are separated by 240 kilometres only, why bother to change course when she had spent 1 year doing biological science? But nevertheless, the decision was hers, so i didn't say anything about it.

Then she got a baby, her baby was very cute!!! she took her first maternity leave. So she had to postpone her academic semester. Again I felt weird. Why bother to have baby back then and postpone the study? Why couln't she just complete her study, and leave UIA for good, 
then she can have as many babies as she wants.. 
But again the decision was hers, so i didn't say anything about it.

Then she got pregnant for the second time. I'm sure her second baby is going to be cute too!!! I adore her babies so much. Undoubtedly, I felt weird.. but I just let that thing pass..

And she changed her Course again from Engineering to Economics. She said her husband could teach (tutor) her, and that would be more menaingful.. I wondered whether she had her own interest in anything or was everything oriented towards her new family? But I just kept quiet..

She is such a great sister who always told me in the years we were together (I seldom meet her now), "Maryam, satu masa nanti Maryam akan faham" whenever I ask her anything. 
I just nodded my head whenever she delivered that line, when in my heart 
I was dead sure i would never understand..

Akak, kalaulah akak baca tulisan Maryam kali ni, akak akan tahu yang sekarang Maryam dah mula faham apa yang akak maksudkan..

Macam kisah Nabi Musa dan Nabi Khidr dalam surah al Kahfi.. (boleh rujuk Quran k)

I have just realized that in this life there are so many ways to accomplish so many things. And life is nothing near stereotyping. If I am asked now, I won't have second thought to leave medicine for a family. 
I won't hesitate to postpone my study. There are so many ways to define success, 
and there is no specific formula to calculate it!

ps: Medicine is all about hardwork, endurance and perseverance. it's not about being brainy. 
I am not hardworking and enthusiastic anymore, am I still fit for Medicine?

Dan aku bila lagi?..

I still clearly remember that particular night, when I was introduced to the concept of usrah, back in matriculation years. Actually I had experiences in joining usrah since I was in primary school. I went to Sri Hira' and on saturdays, our co-curricular activities included usrah, other than First Aid, marching etc.

Back to that particular night, it was between maghrib and Isya', when in the surau of Khadijah College (KC hehe), I for the first time fulfilled the invitation from Kak Aini, to attend a 'discussion group'. It was my first time, but i have kind of expected the time to come- it was like a deja vu, 
me sitting in a circle, along with other muslimat, eager to improve ourselves religious-wise, eager to increase our knowledge, eager to be part of a dynamic Islamic ummah. Yes we were so eager!

So it was during that particular night that I got to know the other members in my usrah group. There were 5 of us, for a start.

First was Kak Ati (Sumarti Samsudin). I grew to be so close to her when I became her tahfiz student hehe. I still clearly remember the hectic academic schedule in matric which did not end at 7pm like everybody else, because i had to attend a personal tasmi' class with her hehe. I grew to be so close to her when our rooms were just few steps away from each others'. And I shared so many things with her. I learnt to be mature from her. I learn so many things from her. And when we left matric, Kak Ati got married to Ust Shahrul. They are blessed with 2 children :) 
I grew to be so close to her when I became the godmother of Aisyah; her first newborn. 

The second one was Kak La (Mazila) I grew to be so close to her when she patiently my karenah hehe. I was a manja-type person (am I not? huu), I was having a severe homesickness, I was a cry baby, but she treated me like I 
was her small sister. She was great in sewing. K.La, I won't forget the day you taught us how to sew a 'cawat'. And someone (org tu taula haha) innocently asked her how long should the zip be haha. 
Some old sweet memory.. 1 thing I certainly won't forget about her is her birth date- 5th august, 
because she told me numerous times! And now she is married, tp belum ada anak :)

The third one was K.Sarah. I grew to be close to her when we shared the same dream- we wanted to be housewives! So was K.Ati haha. We spent long times discussing our dreams- how we wanted to be housewives, teaching and nurturing our children with Islamic values so that they will grow up to be great mujahid mujahidah. How we really want to be good wives, treating our husbands with patience and care etc. and I still remember K.Sarah taught me how to answer killer questions such as "Why do you want to be a housewife when you have sacrificed to get a degree?" Haha. And recently Kak Sarah got married, she came to UIA Kuantan this morning but I was not around (I'm at home). I really miss her, I couldn't make it to her walimah (asifah, K.Sarah) and I was touched when a friend told me Kak Sarah asked about me. After all these years, our ukhuwah remains :)

the fourth one was kak aminah. she is still in indonesia doing dentistry, i still contact her every now and then :) she was one of them who immediately came to my rescue (selain faraa yang sangat kucintai :D) whenever she heard of my uncontrollable crying marathon at KC hehe.

the fifth one was syu (syuhada rahman). a very sweet lady, a very loving sister, a very mature muslimah. she has many siblings, she is the first one, dan ibunye telah dulu pergi menghadap Ilahi, menjadikan dia seorang insan yang mengagumkan aku dengan ketabahan dirinya.

And the sixth one.... is me. Aku? Dan orang selalu bertanya, "Maryam bila pula?" Hmm everybody is very eager to know bila lagi I will join the others, menjadi penyeri dalam kehidupan seorang mujahid, menjadi ummu kepada jundullah muda :) 
sabarlah menanti perkhabaran, kerna tanggungjawab itu berat, satu masa nanti pasti akan tiba juga saat itu, ketika aku sudah sedia memikulnya..

What's so big about it??

Truth is, I am writing in someplace, Where? I'll anounce later.. umm perhaps in 3 months time?? :p

Exam is just 1 week away, and as usual I plan to have my holiday umm a bit earlier hehe which should start tomorrow (it's the revision week :D)

The big Q is, IF someone ask for my hand in marriage, should I humbly and gratefully accept??...

Men are from mars, women are from venus

I just don't know what to write, but hanging around (surfing the internet aimlessly) is not a good idea anyway.. so i end up stuck here, and make my mind think of something. But 1 thing i am sure of is..i blame myself because i did something which i shouldn't do.. watching a friend's wedding photo! That is so forbidden!

Before the hol, i managed to borrow a book from a friend- Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus. I just know, it is so unbelievable for me to read that book, i can't believe it myself -pheww-. And i skipped many parts -again, i am not enthusiastic the least in reading motivational books, no different from reading a novel- but Alhamdulillah.. from my 'scanning' (i just scanned the book to be truthful), i learnt that men are so different from women (a fact that everybody has known huu).

My review of this book-If you are not so keen in this matter or you just don't bother to change yourself or understand others, just forget about the book, it would be very boring (motivational books are always boring btw!!). If you are determined in acquiring communication skills between men(martian)  and women (venusian), first you have to understand the differences that they have. Of course, you can learn some of the differences from this book. BUT if you have the intention of MANIPULATING the opposite gender, boil this book in a broth 
and drink it! Or tadabbur each word contained in it. You'll definitely succeed gee.

To conclude, it is not a waste of time to read it, but on the other hand.......... read it yourself, only then you'll know. In the meantime, i'm searching for a new book.
1 thing for sure, I have to make my future husband read this =P

Atas Nama Cinta

Atas Nama Cinta
Album : Tika Itu
Munsyid : UNIC

Tika mata
Diuji manisnya senyuman
Terpamit rasa menyubur harapan

Dan seketika
Terlontar ke dunia khayalan
Hingga terlupa singkat perjalanan
Tersedar aku dari terlena
Dibuai lembut belaian cinta

Rela aku pendamkan
Impian yang tersimpan
Enggan ku keasyikan
Gusar keindahannya
Merampas rasa cinta
Pada Dia yang lebih sempuna

Bukan mudah
Bernafas dalam jiwa hamba
Dan ku cuba
Menghindarkan pesona maya
Kerna tak upaya ku hadapinya
Andai murka-Nya menghukum leka

Diatas nama cinta
Pada yang selayaknya
Kunafikan yang fana
Moga dalam hitungan
Setiap pengorbanan
Agar disuluh cahaya redha-Nya


Biar sendiri hingga hujung nyawa
Asal tak sepi dari kasih-Nya
Kerna sesungguhnya hakikat cinta
Hanya Dia yang Esa

Saratkan hati ini dengan cinta hakiki
Sehingga ku rasai
Nikmat-Nya
Syurga-Nya
Cinta-Nya

Best ke bertunang?

I have to complete my slides for my Hypothyroidism seminar this tuesday, but my mind just won't stop wandering.. Macamana agaknya orang bertunang rasa eh? My sister is engaged, and she is excited head to heel over it. I mean she keeps saying "Tunang saya..." until her friend feels nauseated huhuu. Some people date their boyfriend, of course that is against syariah. Some people doesn't date their boyfriend, but after engagement, they go on dating... Hmm that is slightly better but still against the syariah. Some people don't date their boyfriend and don't even date their fiance, but they hang on the phone all night.. that is mmm slightly better although it involves gray area (syubhah).. Some people don't date their boyfriend or fiance, don't even call but they SMS each other.. ???? Ada yg tak contact langsung till kahwin?

Some people are engaged for few months and they get married. Some people are engaged for 1 year and 
they get married. Some people are engaged for few years and then get married Whoaa. 
And some people are engaged and then they break the engagement.. 

What do all these people feel? Best ke ada couple, or best lagi bertunang, or best lagi takde couple, suddenly terjumpa Mr Right and terus kahwin? Hmm I don't know...

Islamic advice: Jangan ber'couple' lama-lama, nanti bertambah dosa. Hmm jaga jaga and jaga maruah diri, though of course everybody knows it is hard