Jeleknya kesyukuran yg ada padaku..

Before I went to class, Abang asked me, kalau ada berita baik psl kwn ayang, ayang nak dgr dr kwn ayang or dari abang?
I answered "Abang"
He asked me lagi, "Kalau ada berita buruk pasal kawan ayang, ayang nak dgr dari kawan ayang or dari abang?"
I answered "Abang. Spy ayang tahu abang beratkan tentang kawan2 ayang"
Abang kata malam nanti dia nak cakap sesuatu.. I said ok..

I went to the Operaton Theatre today.. with a very hopeful feeling that I'd be able to do a case presentation. Lunch time was approaching and the Dr wanted to have his lunch, I couldn't contain myself and I cried..right in the OT huu (a habit I guess). Coincidentally there was a party in the nurse pantry in the OT (I don't know for what reason) and they invited us the medical students to join. With the wet nose, puffy eyes, the least that I wanted was to have a public appearance. So I just said thank you, but no thank you. Feeling very sad, I called Ummi. Ummi kata mana ada orang nangis sebab tak dpt buat CP.. And Ummi cakap rugi tak makan free especially when my friends said the cake and puddings were like heaven!! And I cried even harder. I smsed abang but he remained quiet.. Bertambah sedih. The feeling was like, sedihnya tak dpt CP, sedihnya abg jauh, sedihnya abang busy and sedih mcm2 benda lagi. But I was reminded that right at that moment somebody was having a harder and harsher time compared to me.. After quite sometime, Abang replied.He apologized for he was also busy in the Operation Theatre, observing cases of inguinal hernia and paraumbilical hernia. He told me to get my meal, pray 2 rakaat and remember that "Ada Orang yang lebih sedih dari kita sayang.. Abg dpt berita berkaitan 'Ukasyah semalam.."

I was left dumbfounded, trying to secure a meal (tak makan lagi seharian..). Terkedu dan terkesima. Jeleknya kesyukuran yang ada padaku... Astaghfirullah..