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AECD- Acute Exacerbation of Chronic Depression

Yesterday 2 patients died. I observed the CPR being done, came back from the hospital at nearly 12a.m because it was raining cats and dogs and my friend (the driver of the day) didn't have the valor to challenge the unfriendly weather and drive home. I went to the hospital again this morning, but decided that the ward was not an interesting place to be in for today, sat in the study room, did some discussion with a friend, expressed some inappropriate emotions, go back to the hostel and slept.

Do I obviously fulfill the requirement of being a psychiatric patient?? AECD- Acute Exacerbation of Chronic Depression, with unknown triggerring factor. According to the standard classification, this is severe persistent, no doubt about it with daily day symptoms, daily night symptoms, 
frequent exacerbation affecting daily activities. Ya Allah, help me to be a normal person.. I pray that I'll be just fine. I don't even know what is wrong with my life when i have everything tip-top and super-duper. Nothing is wrong at all with my life, except that I continue to be symptomatically depressed! 
That is weird..actually. Do I really feel sad with my current life this much???.......................... 

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

May Allah Bless You.

abdullah said...

It will be easy for you hopefully. All of us face the same depression, pain and struggles, but we need to go on and look for the brighter side. Have a positive outlook, prayers and also try to talk as much as you can with friends to "pass time" and clear your mind. Soft music helps too. A bit of exercise and eating properly and hanging with close friends will help too. We pray for you and for ourselves.