Wedding miscellaneous

It feels nice (extremely actually) to enjoy post-exam quiet days in the serene ambience of our home. I'm trying to pretend that nothing big is going on (since I am not into socializing and partying that much though if the tok kadi asks me whether I would like to bring forward my akad nikah, i won't hesitate an inch to answer a definite Yes haha). My aunt has arrived from Sarawak yesterday, and here I am, blogging. 

For my short case i got a case of breech with Dr Roszaman. Hmm nothing much, and the discussion was around external cephalic version. Dr Dalia (the new lecturer) accompanied him, she was actually trying to familiarize herself with the examination system. Anyway, it was very short (as the name implies of course), I hope it was ok, enough to cover my lumpy long case. Enough of the examination dose. 

Truthfully our house is as quiet as a grave (i am obviously lying because i can hear the sound from the switched on fan). But we are expecting the arrival of relatives tomorrow. There are things which don't happen as planned earlier. Upset? A bit. But never mind, Allah is the best planner :)

I think I've passed the hectic part for the wedding (though I think the next hectic episode starts tomorrow whooa this is so nightmarish), and as for now the only thing I'd love to do is enjoying this end of year 3 holiday to the fullest!

Come to think about it, I have finished my Year 3 MBBS which means I am now a Year 4 student. Is that important? Because I don't feel the slightest 'brainier than a week ago' when I was in Year 3 hmmm. However Year 4 promises a brighter med student life for me. I really can't wait for Year 4 to start! Ah-long dude adekah kita akan sama posting?? Really hoping for it...

How was the exam? Ok? COurse not!

So it is a day post-final-exam, I'm writing again though initially I planned to continue writing after my wedding. I have been blogging for the past 3 quiet weeks- with the only difference I save them as drafts. Reading again the pieces, I couldn't find any reason to publish them save few relevant ones huu it was the usual habit- writing nonsense.

And again my habit of writing on exams- so here goes. The best thing about our exam is, it takes only 2 days! With the first day being examined on the theory part (MCQ & PMP), second day caters the clinical aspect. I was very lucky to have my second day of exam on tuesday rather than on wednesday cause it merely means 1 whole day less for the anxiety to cause cardiomyopathy and damage my fast-beating heart.

MCQ was ~ err no comment. PMP (I don't know what do the initials stand for haha) was quite ok. It's very similar to PBL, we were given 3 cases and for each cases few questions were given (which of course we were expected to answer but that is seldom the case for me huhu). The first one was UV prolapse, 2nd was Pre-eclampsia, 3rd was antepartum haemorrhage (haha I'm giving a vague unspecific diagnosis simply because I don't have the guts to specify it :p)

As for the second day of examination, my exam started at 9am with Long Case. In this exam, I was assigned to a patient, given wonderful 60 mins to act friendly and caring to the patient though most of the time i just acted like a total irritating pest throwing basketful of privacy-breaching queries and invading her dignity by doing physical examinaition with the only justification- I'm trying to help you to become healthy...! :( , and after that a doctor would arrive at the patient's bed and ask me to present the case.

2 things that average-students (like me hoho) love to do before exam:

1. Find out the list of doctors that will take the exam (be the examiners)

2. Pray hard so that only the lenient ones will be available

2 things that average-students love to do on the exam day:

1. scan hard the doctors available in the ward

2. Pray hard that we will be taken only by the lenient ones

2 things that average-students love to do after the exam

1. Pray hard so that our examiner won't remember us for the rest of our life (The worst nightmare for me is when I meet my examiner after the exam, straightaway he/she will remember all the insane things which I have done and mentioned and written in the exam huu)

2. Walk out of the ward in a pitiful face, hoping at least the doctor will give markah kesian, meet our comrades and confess the total havoc of the exam ~sigh~

So back to my long case, I became so nervous when I saw Dr Raja Arif simply because I had a case with him during ward round once. I was dead afraid he would remember my face and have a negative perception towards me huhu. But ignoring the fact, I just went to the patient's bed, looked at her and she seemed so familiar...

Clumsily introduced myself and asked her permission to clerk her. Have I met her before? Yes.. yes.. but I simply couldn't remember.. then YES! "You were in the ward for blood transfusion.. once upon in a time" She nodded. Nightmare started to set in. She was actually Ashraf's patient which I borrowed for Hana's CEX (Haha we actually made our own CEX), and I clearly remebered that Ashraf tried to confuse Hana by telling her it was a case of Leaking Liquor (siap reka cerita lg the amount of leaking) when actually it was a case of anemia in pregnancy + HIV positive. Ok I am not prepared for this.. for HIV case. 

"Kali ni masuk hospital kenapa? Tambah darah lagi ke?" 

"Eh taklah, masuk sebab kencing manis la"

"Ha?????????????" She answered as if her diabetes was like any of her other problems.. so gaily.

I was hoping for a case of Gestational Diabetes Mellitus or Diabetes complicating pregnancy but DEFINITELY NOT THIS KIND OF DIABETES

GDM under diet control, moderate grade anemia with Hb of 7, AIDS on atiretroviral treatment.. what more could I hope for?.....

During the discussion, I tried to steer the direction towards GDM but the examiner (Dr Bahyah) was far more interested in the severe anemia (+ discussion on heart failure) + labouring patient with retroviral disease. I was a complete flunker! Reality is, I flunked almost all of the exam haha (though the Drs sympathized with me and allowed me to pass)

I'll write on shortcase later...

Written 8 days before my wedding haha

This was written 8 days before my marriage..

8 more days to go before I will be officially tied to A'thiq. Feeling? Stressful & Worried. Stressful? Yup, i think it's the continuum of yesterday's incident.. I smsed him, asking his whereabout. Told me that he was about to board the plane. Yeay Alhamdulillah! Abah told me to delay my plan to go back to Kuantan tomorrow morning. So the latest plan is to buy Shah-Alam Kuantan ticket, Saturday 9am.

Abah will fetch him from KLIA tomorrow morning. In the first place, he asked me to go to the airport with him, then he changed his mind. Feeling? I do miss him a lot and badly want to see him but.... i'd rather meet him for the first time after a long period, on our wedding day.. and i'd rather talk to him for the first time as his wife.. why? I'm dead afraid of the emotional outburst.

He called me this evening but I refused to answer. Why? Again it's the emotional outburst. I was worried that I might have cried when I listened to his voice through the phone. Why? Simply because I miss him so much, a fact that I have never shared with him

A friend called me just now, but again I refused to answer.Why? Not in the mood. I am currently extremely insane!

He told me to log into his Yahoo account for I was assigned to do something.. accidentally saw an email folder entitled Zaujahku Sayang (My beloved wife) containing all my emails. Oooppsss probably he forgot about that when he asked me to log into his account huhu. Feeling? My Lord, that was the last thing I need!! Currently in such a rindu-rindu state, I wouldn't want any induction dose sigh~

8 more days to go?? I just can't wait for his first husbandly kiss hehe. My exams? errrrr forgot bout that... :p