Anak itu anugerah

Faheem cuba korek keluar anjing and tulisan tu..

tak berjaya..!

Faheem sedang 'operate' tigger..

mummy & faheem... Arabella Mall

Ameer Faheem al-Waseem.... satu ANUGERAH!

Malam tadi kami menerima berita gembira lagi. Alhamdulillah pasangan Nadiah dan Fauzi Akmal dianugerahkan cahayamata pertama mereka, seorang mujahid. Anak bongsu irbid barangkali sebelum tirai 2011 berlabuh. Setiap kali adanya berita kelahiran, saya pasti naluri keibuan tercuit, baik ibu-ibu yang sudah memiliki ramai tentera-tentera kecil, mahupun mereka yang baru akan bergelar ibu. Begitulah kegembiraan yang dibawa bersama suatu kelahiran, kegembiraannya sehingga tersebar dan terkesan pada orang sekitarnya :)

Anak itu anugerah, benarkah? Kata org kedah, "Celah mana?" Aku duduk terkesima, benarkah? Jika sedari kecil menuntut pengorbanan dan kesabaran ibu bapa? Sudahlah mengandung itu payah, melahirkan itu menyakitkan. Bila sahaja lahir, ragamnya cukup melelahkan. Asyik saja menangis kelaparan sehinggakan tidur ayah ibunya terganggu, kemudian baru disusukan, berak pula. Ini tidak lagi dikira kembung perut, sakit itu dan ini, dan macam2 ragam lagi. Menginjak ke dewasa, pelbagai fasa dilalui. Ingin makan segala benda, ingin mencuba setiap sesuatu, tidak mendengar kata, buas dan banyak lagi sehingga tidak tersenaraikan..

Apakah dengan kesusahan ini, anak itu masih dikatakan satu anugerah? Tentulah. Kerana disebalik kepayahan mengandung, ibu ayah tidak jemu mengusap manja anak didalam perut dan tidak sabar untuk menanti saat lahirnya. Disebalik kesakitan melahirkan, dapat menatap wajah comel anak memberikan bahagia yang sukar untuk diungkap. Sehinggakan saat melahirkan itu selalu dirindui untuk dilalui semula. Disebalik ragamnya yang banyak dan acapkali mencabar kesabaran, memenuhi keperluan dan kehendak anak itu membuahkan kepuasan. Puas dapat mengenyangkannya, puas dapat membuatkan dia selesa, puas dapat melihatnya membesar didepan mata, puas dapat mendidiknya. Dan jika anak itu tersasar dalam perjalanan kehidupan, pasti kita ingin sentiasa disampingnya memberikan panduan, biarlah sedalam mana kedegilannya

Ameer Faheem al-Waseem?

Ameer faheem adalah anugerah untuk kami alhamdulillah. Anugerah selama 10 bulan + 9 bulan mengandungkan, hampir 2 tahun kami hidup dengan kehadirannya. Setiap detik yang berlalu adalah detik yang meninggalkan jejak rindu (kecuali ketika alahan mengandung huu). Kini Faheem sudah 10 bulan, kenangan yang tercipta terlalu banyak untuk diabadikan.

Memang ada ketika, kami geram betul dengan ragamnya. Makan segala benda (termasuklah sampah sarap, kasut dsb), koyakkan buku, tabur makanan serata rumah, tak dengar kata. Tapi kami cuba untuk mengerti bahawa kedegilannya adalah untuk mempelajari. Contohnya sudah banyak kali dia cuba untuk pegang api pemanas, kami cukup marah, dan pernah sekali dia berjaya pegang juga, dan terus meraung kesakitan. Saat itu aku marah, tapi marah dengan diri sendiri kerana tidak mampu melindungi dia.

Hari ini kami ke klinik untuk suntikan 10 bulan (ikut jadual suntikan Jordan). Anak2 disitu semuanya diam dan pasif. tiba2 suara anak teruna saya juga yang memecahkan kesunyian. Menegur pasangan kembar lelaki yang lebih kurang sebaya dengannya. "Ahh!.. ahh!" Tiba2 dia senyum. Kembar itu juga tersenyum. Hehe gelagat Ameer Faheem selalu mencuit hati. "Assalamualaikum" saya mengajar Ameer faheem cara untuk menegur kawan. "Alaikassalam" ibu kembar itu menjawab dengan sura halus. "Psst... pssst," dia menyambung. memang itu cara mereka bermain dengan bayi. Faheem pun mula mengeluarkan suara halusnya. Bayi 'shini' kami juga yang hebat! (mereka suka mengejek orang melayu dengan panggilan "Shini" iaitu Chinese. Kata abang itu satu penghinaan)

Dan sejak memiliki Faheem hampir tidak pernah aku berbelanja untuk diri sendiri sehinggakan abang kata, "Setiap kali keluar kita beli barang untuk Faheem je!" Aku tersengih, "Anak kita sorang ni je kan :)". Bahagia

Masih tidak percaya bahawa anak itu anugerah?

Salam awal muharram

Today I cook nasi lemak (not again??? huargggh), because a kitchen that smells like malaysia makes me feel heavenly in the Jordan winter. And today I make bawang goreng. You know the kind that you buy (and never make it yourself) in Malaysia. The kind that people say are cooked with plastic to make it crunchy..? No, I made it myself and they are just as crunchy, obviously I didn't fry any kind of plastic. I'm thinking of making some hot soto (and ohh eat it with the bawang goreng!), and in the same time planning to make mee bandung (I've blended some sweet potato, and put them in the fridge). Man, I just can't stop thinking about food in winter!!!! T_T

The only thing that I need right now is a weighing scale.

Hari ini awal muharram. Abang actually wished me "Salam Maal Hijrah"..... didn't expect it anyway. Abang kata kena lupa kesalahan lama, kena tambah kebaikan dan kasih sayang. Huhhh kena tambah jugakla baca Quran dan jangan asyik berFB and blogging je ok :)

I really have a long way to go.......

Ameer Faheem's props

faheem can stand up and take 2 to 3 steps further alhamdulillah :)

faheem's curtain

hanging bedhead (bumper)

bedsheet, and blanket

and pillowcases too!

Don't want to write much, just want to upload few pics of Ameer Faheem's props which I made myself :D Just so that Ameer Faheem will one day realize how special he is!

It's freezing cold and I'm not ok with it..

I am writing this because i have nothing better to do. how sweet does that sound? it's really cold here, and i'm slowly and chronically losing my sanity to it. i don't know the temperature but what i do know we use the water heater all the time and I've had my fair share of burns because of the desperate need to be warm. scalding hot specifically. And numerous times mentioning to abang of a getaway to Malaysia haha. There are always thing to be fretted about when there are so many other things to be thankful of. I always feel like throwing the gas sobah (heater) into a sea (Aqabah perhaps) when I have two hirams (and of course abang too) to make me warm. Oh I can't stand the smell of the gas- it gives me watery eyes and headache. And then I despise entering toilet. I remember once Ummi told me of her experience when she was studying in UK. She said that mat saleh bathe once in a month. I do some math, and if winter spreads for 4 months, then they bathe for 4 times ONLY throughout that period. Surely I would like to do that too! But only this morning I smelled Ameer Faheem, and had to persuade abang to smell him too. Guess what? He smelled like a goat (I'm not kidding seriously). And Ameer Faheem bathe weekly. Oh monthly bath is a definite no-no.

Ameer Faheem and me have quite a severe cough and runny nose since a week ago. And if Ameer Faheem has runny nose, it is absolutely a mess. He doesn't know how to blow his nose, and he seriously objects to others wiping his nose as well. mengamuk2 taknak org lap hingus dia haisyy. And in case you are wondering why does mummy get it everytime Ameer Faheem has it, the answer is simple dimple (bak kata abang), he LOVES coughing at my face. It's not air-borne to be clear, he practically sprays all his infectious saliva to me huhuuu.

There was one morning when abang and me walked to yarmouk mosque to perform subh prayer. on our way, we came across a man who was sleeping on the cement floor of a row of shops. No hiram, no mattres, nothing. He was wearing a shirt and a pair of jeans. It was surely freezing cold. Only then I realized how lucky I am not to be homeless T_T But then I still snap at people when I can't stand the low temperature. And seriously I think I can freeze and die (in my sleep probably) T_T Naudzubillahiminzalik

We visited ijat this morning. her husband called me sometime before subuh, informing me of the contractions that she had. 3 in 10; 1 minute each. i said "what? Go to the hospital now!", knowing her history of a fast labour. Asked abang to get a taxi asap and as soon as they arrived there, she gave birth to a super cute 3.1kg baby girl, darling Ulya. Oh how I love watching her serene, lovely chubby face. Well of course not without inviting a question from abang, "Kita bila lagi ayang?". I've always wanted a girl, but uh perhaps pregnancy is not for me for the time being and in the immediate future. I've had enough an experience, to last for few years insyaAllah :)

Ameer Faheem loves clapping his hand nowadays. And he is also a copycat hehe. I like to kiss him and enhance the sound (uh you know the kissing sound), and now when I do it, he makes that sound back. It's funny :D 2 more teeth have erupted, totaling in 4 front teeth. I'm currently teaching him how to climb up the ladder of his slide hehe. Tapi sekarang asyik nak kena dukung je, suka nangis buat bunyi merajuk teruk. and sometimes in the middle of the night he doesn't want to be alone so I just put him in my lap, hug him tight, we look at each other doing nothing for hours huuu. Will probably upload few pics of that little darling in few days time :)

To the mosque we go, to the mosque we go it's friday today! :D it's friday people. and today we have the SEAD programme. An Eidul Adha celebration for malaysians in Irbid, oh I guess I'd probably be enjoying rendang after all (well that's the case if they cook rendang haha).

Yesterday, Ameer Faheem (and mummy hehe) managed to put his hands on a slide (gelongsor)- the toy which abang has promised to buy for him, in exchange with my cooking ngee~. A blue one, 3 steps. Huuu macam teruk plak isteri abang nih. Well the price is obviously cheaper than ordering food for 100 people so i'm taking it as a win-win situation, kan abang kan?? It's not that abang won't buy it for free (because really abang is one person who almost never say no to anything) but I just felt unfair to get something without doing anything.

Classes start in 2 days time and oh how much i hate that. But a student has got to strive hard. Our (Ameer Faheem and me) days will surely be lonely when abang is busy at class. And that signals I've got to put my headmistress hat on, planning things for Ameer Faheems education again. Btw, Ameer Faheem had his 2 weeks of school-free days :D

Aidil adha 2011

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

This year marks our (Ameer faheem and me) first aidiladha far away from home. I was a lil bit teary of course especially when abang started takbir on raya night but since it was only 2 weeks since I came back here, the eid was not so terrible after all Alhamdulillah :)

As we were in a festive mood, Abang decided to hold open houses (twice in fact). The first one which was on first day of raya, was allocated for the singles (especially abang's batch-mates :p). The second one on the third day of raya was for families. Initially abang decided to order the food priced at JD1.5 per head. Pondering upon that thought, I came up with another idea; which was I cook but in turn abang allows me to buy Faheem something expensive haha. A toy. Abang agreed. So on both occasion I cooked Nasi minyak, ayam masak merah, acar sayur, cakes (choc and banana), carbonara and macaroni. That were about all I could afford to do.. practically alone huu as i cooked for 100 people in total. Pheww that was really a work-out for me.

Ameer Faheem enjoyed the company so much of course, many kids to play with. And of course he loved playing with 'Umar! There was one time when he stood and hold on to Umar's hood and tried to chase after 'Umar, while flashing a cheeky smile all the time. But 'Umar walked too fast for him and he fell. Oh both of them look soo cute together! :DDD We also attended other open houses, it was such fun Alhamdulillah. An at one of the open houses, Kak Jiha actually made a soft cotton japanese cheesecake which was too good to be called delicious that I have decided to try baking it today! And Kak Aizah baked carrot cake which was also too good to be real and i'm gonna try baking it soon as i receive the recipe from her insyaAllah. Wish me luck :) Will probably send a report later haha.

Ameer Faheem will turn 10 months in 2 weeks time insyaAllah. We have lost track of his weight and height, thanks to the comprehensiveness of infant checkup in Jordan clinic :(. But he can now stand without support (and smiling ear to ear while doing it. oh he's so proud of it!), sometimes trying to take a step further but end in a fall hehe. I pray that he can walk soon insyaAllah.