1.5 day to go

Approximately 36 hours to go before the actual professional exam.... and what do I feel? I miss my little man damn much!!!!!!!!!! Owh he's in Kuantan btw ^_^ but I am 'camping' in the campus for the time being (name it, anywhere in the campus- mahallah, surau cf, surau KOM, library) from early morning to late night everyday, trying to pretend that I've done my best probably huuu. Ameer Faheem stays at home with his aunt :)

Yesterday he turned 4 months, his weight is not that satisfying.. 7kg, 65cm Alhamdulillah ala kulli hal. Now I've started thinking of giving him complementary food, but Ameer Faheem please wait till mummy is all done with the exam ok :) This morning Ameer Faheem made a new achievement, he managed to move forward in his walker! And guess what. He tried to climb out of his walker when he saw a bowl on a small table with sambal in it, believing that he could reach it perhaps.. He get excited when he is in a situation with many people (eg when we went to pasar malam or when we attended a wedding reception), he really talks much, he keeps staring and staring at people hoping that they will greet him, and when they actually greet him, he will reply with a broad smile (at times it looks like a sheepish grin haha) and start a conversation! (he actually did that in the clinic huhuuu. Now I really try to imagine my future household with 2 talkative men! The dad and the son huhuuu. Instead of my usual line of "Abang, abang ni cakap banyak sangat..." I probably need to say this in the future "Ameer faheem, can you and daddy talk in a room, and don't forget to keep the door shut ok" :p Oh well that's a joke, I do enjoy having them around, sincerely!!

Well final exam, final exam, final exam, how I hope this will be the final of my MBBS.. everybody is hoping for the same thing I'm sure. Truthfully Ive tried my best, and of course I've to thank hana who goes through this with me (I just can't imagine studying alone, I'll end up sleeping, smsing abang, playing with Faheem etc huu). And a quote from a dear friend Iman, "Only 5 days left Maryam, do study like mad, and let Allah takes care of the rest!" really motivates me. Most of the times, I really don't care of the outcome. Ok I'm a person who enjoys studying and making notes I guess (no matter how weird that sounds) but seriously this time around I really want to pass and be with Abang huuu. But Allah knows best of course :) So try hard, pray to Allah, and finally I'm ready to place my tawakkal in him InsyaAllah :)

Abang, today is 15th May 2011!

I woke up and threw a glance at the handphone screen. 15.05.2011. Ameer Faheem started crying for his milk. I picked him up, put on my lap and said to him, "Today daddy turns 26!" Tears started to roll down the cheek. Oh how I miss him.. my everything whom I haven't met for almost 4 months. "I really miss daddy, do you miss him too?" the usual question I give to Ameer Faheem. He would just blink his eyes, continue feeding.. understanding nothing perhaps :)

Hari2 usia abang bertambah, tapi pada tarikh ni, 26 tahun yang lalu, mak berjuang untuk lahirkan abang ke dunia.. something that you and i can only appreciate after the birth of ameer faheem probably.. at the age of 26, you have a wife who really loves you, a cute and brainy little hero who makes you feel happy, a big responsibility as a husband and a dad which matures you in so many ways. alhamdulillah for His uncountable bounty! We really can't wait to meet you, abang :D

Impending break till pro :D

This will probably be my last entry before the professional exam. And probably will be the last entry before ameer faheem turns 4. oh in addition to his rolling over capability, ameer faheem has started moving forward, sometimes haha. Once i was in the toilet, he was lying on his mattress, i heard some noises and hey when i came out of the toilet, he was approaching the bedroom door! However at other times he is very static as if what happened earlier was just an accident out of rebelliosity perhaps haha (he HATES being left alone) Ameer faheem is 3.5 months alhamdulillah. He got the second attack of CSOM last week :( Sometimes changes make me feel nervous.. that's the case when I think faheem looks thinner yet taller.. My theory part of psy exam was yesterday, and the clinical part will be tomorrow, and after that i'm going home for quite some time yeay! Not having any formal class is really unbelievable, well it has been 7 years since IIUM and me have walked together gee~

Ameer Faheem will be staying with his Ummi Astem while I sit for my pro exam.. for a week inshaAllah. The impact of separation will be harder on me, rather than him probably. And surely Ummi Astem will have a hard time managing my little boy! Super clingy adorable creature indeed :p

Do pray for our success...