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Saturday

Finishing O&G

Alhamdulillah i've reached the finishing line, only the logbook is waiting to be filled up. I  get 9 days of end posting holiday, and currently enjoying it to the most before I start tagging again.. Its weird to think that i'm entering my 2nd year of housemanship, as it feels like yesterday when i was a lumpy 1st poster in Orthopaedic. Oh don't get me wrong, I'm still lumpy but probably a little bit better :p I hope I go to surgery after this.

Things was a bit stressful lately. Housemen are 'scanty' here in Hosp Sg Buloh. I think they initially decided to revert to the old system when they didn't have housemen, so they stopped the intake, but things started to get out of control when the existing housemen are 'dying', which make them requesting for houseman from KKM again.. haihhh... i hope a big bunch of HO will arrive soon.

I'm a doctor, but most of the time I cant understand the nature of abang's work... or I refuse to  understand :( I keep asking him, why do I go back at 7am the next day when I'm on PM shift, and why do you go back at 5pm?? Or why do I go back @ 5pm when I'm on AM shift, and why do you go back @ 1am??
Why?? Why?? Why do you come home and straightaway going to sleep without taking your bath? I was obviously blind to see that Mr Husband came home half dead huhuu. Abang was defintitely trying his best to be cool despite feeling very tired coming home to an emotional wife hehehe. I call him non stop, crying on the phone whenever he is doing his oncall. The house feels very lonely without him, I guess that is how much abang means to me ;p

So after a prolonged period of depression, coincidental with my first day of holiday, I decided that I need to take a break. A good break. I went out with Asma' to this one salon in Sek 7 Shah Alam, exclusively for muslimah. Guess what? I spent 5 hours there, and a a big chunk of my salary pampering myself and I came home with ammonium smell, and a strict rule not to have a hairwash for 3 DAYS but abang still smile and kept teasing me with regard to the new look ;p

We then bought dresses and the next day I indulge myself in buying makeups and what not haihh. And still plan to go shopping with Ummi tomorrow!

Today I have a new dream: to send Faheem to this school---> Darul Huffaz. way more expensive than his current school, semoga Allah murahkan rezeki Ameer Faheem.. And people keep asking me, :"When will the next one arrive??" My answer would be... when both of us are ready insyaAllah :)

At the end of the day, Maryam al batul will always be the old same Maryam al batul... It's only my third day and I've started to feel guilty to leave the book untouched hehe. Back to business as usual. Cant wait for abng to start his 1-week hol in 2 days time!

Wednesday

PD again



Enjoying the breeze of PD, enjoying the serenity of a holiday, enjoying the company of the men that i love.. life is such a bliss. Alhamdulillah :)

Working life is taking a 'sinister' turn lately.. we are so short of housemen such that we had to revert to oncall system. i went back in the morning after 24H in the hosp, then return back the very evening for another pm shift.. dont blame me when i fell sick again and again.. of course wonder a short holiday is extremely welcomed ;p

in the last entry i wrote, "3 weeks in O&G.." and now i'm writing " 3 weeks more before i finish O&G..." May Allah ease everything for me, and may i not be extended... T_T.

Sunday

3 weeks

3 weeks into O&G.. there was a day when I felt like I couldn't move on..when I wanted so much to march on forward, but there isn't a path which I could identify..when I felt like the future was a bleak monent placed in a infinite yonder, and my heart seemed to drown in horrible blend of palpitation and uncertainties..that is O&G to me.. Abang kept saying, "you have survived Ortho & Paeds, why shouldn't you survive this one? I don't know and I don't know.. Allah has always planned something for each and everyone..

I just want to stop, for few precious moments, to remember that I am a doctor- no matter how lame and unappealing it sounds. And abang has been very kind to bring me to Big Bad Wolf on the very first day the sale started. It was a shopping spree that spanned from 12am-6am! A happy me tagging abang home with a trolley luggage full of children books! Plus 4 books for me, and 1 book for abang. Ameer Faheem deserves it!. He sacrificed so much by not having enough time to spend with us throughout his growing up years. May he grow up to become one tough mujahid!

I actually went there this morning for the second time.. this time around with Yasir. Abang is tagging in Medical. I brought home 2 novels! Not a romantic one of course. I love reading crime thingy.. And also few interior design and garden books, for abang and me to browse through before going to sleep.. a habit which we have adopted for quite some time..