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Another dragging 2 weeks of ophthal..before another extra-dragging 1 week for revision (T_T)..the final exam... and poofff to Jordan again insyaAllah. ENT viva wasn't that well uhuks but I still treat myself to a weekend at home :D Anticipating a bleak future for the next few weeks [it's became even nastier once we were informed of a dermato exam, a CPR course and what not which will be held during revision ~sigh~ when I have carefully planned for a wonderful breakaway period in Shah Alam :( ]

Attended an Orthopaedic CPC on friday, was surprised by the degree of orthopaedic knowledge loss from my brain huuu.. Well in just almost 3 months, all the terms sounded very strange.. and that kinda jerked me into reality.. I don't have much time to waste before the final Pro..definitely a significant shortage (at a loss) Will definitely start revising soon InsyaAllah :D

Abang is extremely busy with the USIM thingy (their 3rd year medics are visiting Jordan for some clinical experience ??? :O) and yup I have to admit I hate the neglected feeling aha :p USIM, silalah balik Malaysia cepat ok. So I try to busy myself by making a brain model using plastics and cardboards huuu (definitely mcm budak tadika) and I guess I'm quite satisfied with it. 'Busying myself' is absolutely not complete without online shopping huu so I kinda raked out abang's money (again huuuu. sbnrnya abg yg berhati mulia nak belanja ok :p) for a piece of black dress (hua hua), making us poorer by RM100+ (baru-lah sibuk menyimpan duit ngan abang utk beli rumah huuu, da shopping lg). 2 solid months without abang T_T

Neurology has always fascinated me.. however, upon entering ENT posting, I had realized that I had almost forgotten the entire bulk of neurology..especially neuroanatomy.. T_T I wantED to be a neurosurgeon, so is abang.. but I can just imagine the workaholic me putting my family at stake hehe when I blend into neurosurgery.. so that's it- a dream down the drain. But never mind, one should study lillahitaala, and I guees that's adequate for me right now, even though I have to postpone housemanship for a year T_T hint2x again

Borang Muhasabah Umar al-Khattab

This very idea is not my own..it is Dr Raja's. The name Borang Muhasabah Umar al Khattab was also given by him.. So I just do my duty to propagate it..

The problem with most medical students is..they do not know what they do not know.. So he told us to create this form..fill in the 'disease' column with some of the common diseases (me going to check it in the ward, they do have a list :p), then every day for each of the diseases, if you can recall (recall as in you have memorized it and try to give some output) the other subtopics namely the pathophysio, sign & symptoms etc (but I just add the clerking and short cases part to make sure I do my clinical duty haha), tick in the box..then by the time you want to sit for the pro exam..you know how to study efficiently and avoid redundancy while unconsciously abandoning some other important topics..so happy studying :)

Bolus infusion of motivation

Alhamdulillah I am finally home :D was making a plan to at least feed the brain with some knowledge of medical flavour this weekend..and guess what? was greeted yesterday (upon arrival) by such THICK medical books which abah has just bought huuu. Ahh there goes my leisure time for baking..down the drain ngee~ Once I was rebellious when we were asked to use Nelson's TEXTBOOK of paediatric (mind you it's not the ESSENTIAL version, but rather the one you would use to become a paediatric consultant). I was not going to be a paediatrician, so I claimed. Then we were asked to use the thick Apley (the one that can impart sudden death to an average built dog once you throw the book to it), definitely the rebelliosity recurred. Despite that I managed to soothe the feeling, telling myself that should I buy the book, I have no other option but to pursue further in Orthopaedic Surgery gah~ And now.. as Kanski's Clinical Ophthal and Habif's Clinical Dermato which weigh 4kg each meekly stare at me in the face (I actually weighed them!!! considering that I have to meticulously calculate the ATPs needed to pull it out from the book rack, put it on the table, open it and flip through the extra-many pages, and the ATPs which I have to reserve for putting it back on the rack after reading it... not much ATPs left precisely for the brain to carve in the infos huh?? That's basically Dr Raja's theory haha) I guess I don't have much choice but to be docile and appreciate them. Be frank, the very thought to be a dermatologist or an ophthalmologist scares me out of my skin..what a meek life huu. Probably I should just let the idea sink up to the sacral level and undergo complete calcification...

ENT I personally perceive as a little bit more interesting compared to the rest of specialized postings.. though I know that I flunk the anatomy part excellently- no doubt..but at least I get the adrenaline rush just by being intimate with Snell's Neuroanatomy again, Alhamdulillah :)

And I don't know which ghost of either Kumar or Clark is possessing me right now that I feel so high spirited to read the book haha and definitely can't wait to embark the journey of final year huu (napela bersemangat melampau ni??) Basically because I can't wait to graduate!!!!!!!!!!! huuu. How I really hope I can join my colleagues doing the housemanship........... (hint2x)